::23::

10 years ago…I was offered to further my studies at one of the most prestigious school in JB. I was clueless and didn’t know what to expect since it is a boys school which I don’t really comfortable to fit myself in. I don’t know why, but that’s the truth. The first day at school wasn’t that bad coz some of my friends from my previous school were there too...basically, we were randomly placed into few classes before we had to sit for a placement test. Then only we will be placed in our permanent class depending on the result of that particular test.

1perdana 3 was the class I was located before the exam. I had no friends at all in that class. That was sucks. For not letting others to notice my existence, I sat on a table next to the window. I was quiet although the class filled with noise from those over-excited students as if only they were chosen to be in that school…WTH? I looked around, and there was a loud talkative boy who was talking to his friend. And it’s YOU…the way you speak captured my attention. You converse with emotion…you were loud, your eyes were telling some stories, your hands moved accordingly when you speak, and most importantly you just didn’t bother what others would say about you. It’s you. And thanks a lot coz you entertained me when I was in that class although you were not talking to me. Looking at you is more than enough to make me laugh. Haha…

Again, we’re placed in the same class after that test. But I didn’t know about you that much until you actively involved in our school marching band. That was the starting point. As time flies, we became closer together with naufal and adli coz marching band is our passion before, now, and I firmly believe, forever. We had great times being the ‘4 ekor setan’. We had our ups and downs, we had joy, we had tears, we had everything until now. Well, these make us stronger. Even though there were four of us but I can say that two is a lot easier. So, there were times which we are closer to only one of us…I was once close with adli…and once with naufal…I did not get the opportunity to be closed with you. Maybe back then, we were not meant to be together. I don’t know…

Only after you moved to a different school when we were in form 5, I felt that something is missing…(even though I told you that I was quite happy when you decided to move…you know why)…but seriously…I felt different…first when naufal moved to SAMURA, then adli, then you got the offer to study in SAMURA too…only God knows how I felt during that time; losing one after another of my closest friends…thank God you changed your mind and stay. And few months after that adli came back.

After SPM, we went to different colleges, I was doing matriculation, you and adli was in MMU, naufal was in Lembah Beringin preparing himself to be a doctor….few months after that I got a call from you telling me that you got an offer to enroll in my matriculation to do law which I think suits you best. I pretended to be surprised hearing that news coz I just had a call from adli informing me that you are planning to further your studies in the same college with me. Huhu…you know that I’m good at this. During matriculation, we were close…you bring bliss and joy into my dull and boring life in matric…well, no one likes matric…it was like a jail with no bareback prisoner. So, we spent most of our time bitching around matric, singing curiga in d middle of the night, cap keli cap with our roommates, skipping classes just to go out of matric n lots more.

One day, we had this one conversation, I don’t remember what was the topic…but after that conversation, I left your room with my eyes filled with tears…I kept myself away from you as much as I can…we hardly talk to each other due to that incident…frankly speaking…I can’t recall what was actually happened…for some reason, we prolonged this ‘not talking’ session more than 3 months…you tried to talk to me but I was not ready…maybe I was too emotional…I did not understand what were you trying to say…that’s probably why I needed some time to be alone…

I graduated from matriculation a year earlier than you did…so we were apart from each other…I thought that I’ll be fine without you in my life…I can live on my own…I have my other friends…and in fact I’m at a different place…and if you are here too, we won’t be in the same faculty, why should I bother…but I was wrong, I realized that you made my life loaded with colours, if I had just white, you put purple, red, blue, green, yellow, and etc. So I decided to lessen my ego. I contacted you back and asked you out. We went to Mid Valley. It was like a fresh breath…since then we started to accept whatever flaws that we have…we became more tolerate…we share almost everything…I can say that we know each other very well…I will find you whenever I have problems…no matter what they are…it’s a lot easier talking to you rather than talking to my classmates…they don’t understand me like you, naufal and adli do…I even had consultation with you regarding my design even though you are a law student…haha…

I remember once I came to you after d most terrible presentation I’ve ever did…I was one of the lowest…design lecturers are very straight forward…they say whatever they wanna say…and most of the time they are harsh…I almost cried in d class and I sent you a msg coz I needed someone to talk to…and you were there to be my shoulder to cry on…we met at one of the café for lunch but I had nothing that day…I was not in d mood although I was starving…you calmed me down…you gave me motivational words to boost up my confidence…thank God I recovered with new spirit…

You’ve done a lot so far…if I were to write everything here...it might take a full page of the blog itself...only God can pay back your countless kindness...for whatever you do...i wish you all the best...thanks a lot for being such a great friend of mine...

written with a pen,

seal with a kiss,

if u are my friend,

please answer this..

are we a friend or n0t?

u t0ld me once but i 4g0t,

s0 tell me n0w n tell me true,

s0 i can say,im here 4u..

of all the fiends i've ever met,

u're the one i wont 4get,

and if i die b4 u d0,

i'll go to heaven n wait 4u..

Happy 23rd Birthday...